I realized the other day how much I need this. How Much I Need this written word diary. This cry into cyberspace. I realized that I can't talk right.
What I say typically has nothing to do with how I feel.
But This. This cry into binary code delivers me somehow. I need you blog. I'm sorry I doubted you.
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My sister and my niece surprised me this weekend. I didn't know they were going to visit. They flew across the country to see me. When I saw them I cried. And my weekend become wonderful. Already wonderful though. My brother snug in his corner bedroom. His presence here and permeating already.
My sister and I fought though. Like cry so hard you want to throw up hard. I even threw a Sprite can at the wall. It exploded and fizzed unto the walls. I have never done that before. Sure, I have lost my temper, but never punched or thrown things.
I come by it honestly perhaps. After we made up (that's too simple of a sentence), my brother sis and I named off all the objects that had been thrown by each member of the family, including my mother. I now, the self-proclaimed non-thrower, now I join the club. I have to admit, it was the perfect expression of how I felt at the moment. I am somewhat ashamed by how good it felt.
I would tell you about it, but it wearies me, and plus my sister reads this. Rest assured though, we all think we're right and justified and that knowledge only flusters us so.
Why though, at 31, are we still fighting? What is it about the sibling relationship that challenges us so?
3 comments:
If only I knew.
Did you have clean up the Sprite? That seems like a messy job.
lol! well...i think my brother and sister realized how pissed i was and my brother thankfully cleaned it up for me. I don't even know what it looked like...not sure if that's good or bad. But he did say it was quite messy.
Darc- this blog is for you... yes I read it but I know what happened during out outbreaks, so write away. I too don't know where that came from. It is true for as much as we love eachother we can still get under eachothers nails like kids :) I vow for no more drama!
If u cut out the fight we had a great time, giving Nova tons of baths in ur great big tub and the visit to the beach was priceless. Baking the cake was the funniest! The barbeque we had, the shopping, shall I continue?
We are so happy that we were able to surprise you. You are the most beautiful pregnant woman I have ever seen!
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