Wednesday, June 23, 2010

365 degrees, Going Once

Sometimes when I don't write for awhile, I find it even harder to write. Because time has passed and things have happened and my mind is filled with things to say and details to fill you in on. I think about breaking them down into bullet points i.e.

* Moved into new house
* We love it.
* The cats love it.
* Went on a trip to AZ
* It was fun.
* I'm like six months pregnant.
* I'm huge.
* I still feel kinda hot though.
* Brother moves in with us in about a week.
* I'm excited and kinda scared too.
* I love change.
* I hate change.

But I thought I disliked diary posts, even though that's what we're all really here for. And sometimes I think if you just detail your life, people find that more interesting than being all creative and write-y.

I don't think I'm leaving here. This blog. But I do find myself wondering what I'm doing here. What am I trying to accomplish. If anything. Maybe I am leaving. Let me think.

I recently passed my year-o-blogging mark, my 365 degrees, and I don't think I'm doing what I came here to do. I mean, I did do it. But I am looking for something else. I have a different idea of what to do. And I'm wondering if I should just leave this here. And move on to my other thing. It's blogging. But it's not blogging like this. It's more like career blogging. Which seems more practical. More useful. And a pet project of mine. I don't see the use in this anymore. Is this like a blogging crisis or something...idk. I've learned a lot here though. We'll see...

I'm not ready to leave this yet, but I needed to tell it how I felt.

6 comments:

Steph(anie) said...

Yeah, yeah, yeah. Where's the belly picture?

Seriously though, I've felt that way dozens of times and keep going back.

Your cousin said...

Oh...I think I have been blogging since 2000. Mostly as a diary, mostly as a way to stay in touch with people I really know. Then it became a way to people that like stuff I like...now I try to look at as a business. I think about how I have 2 blogs and wonder why when i have no time for either. And who's really listening. blah, blah...it's ok to change your purpose. You might lose some, but you'll gain others too. I would love to read your blog once baby gets here. Here's a writing request. Write about what you think it's going to be like to be a mommy the first few months and then write about what it's actually like and compare the 2 later. We'll have a good laugh together :)

Anonymous said...

nice to see you back! missed you!
your biggested fan...mome

Phoenix said...

Sometimes I think about leaving my blog too, but then something awful/awesome happens and I'm all, Thank God I have a Blog. I think it's the fact that I love story-telling so much.

Blogging shouldn't feel like a chore though, so don't pressure yourself to keep doing what you don't want to do. But you can always come back to a blog because your readers will understand that in order to have a blog you have to first have a life.

I hate/love change too. I get it, girl. It's terrifying and messy and the furniture gets rearranged to weird places but sometimes it's a breath of fresh air too. :)

Mwa said...

I see what you mean. No need to wrap it up, though - just come back to it when you need it or want it. I am having trouble with the inspiration being pregnant as well, but I'm keeping my blog going, hoping that it will come back once the baby's out and a bit bigger. (Actually, I still love it.)

Cole said...

imma help u write your blog when I move in. love - ur bro!

spare a girl some clicks?

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