Just Because

My husband bought me flowers yesterday. Just because. Just because I watched the little guy while he was away for work. Just because it made me tired. Just because it made me weak. Just because he thinks I'm cute and just because he thinks I'm worth it.

I received them the day after I wrote that post. The one a couple posts down where I am peeling apart at the seams. The one where I am cycling through the low part of the bipolar extremes of momhood.

I am so grateful that the man that gave me flowers is the man that will be the role model for my little man. I am hoping my little man will look at my big man and learn How to Be a Man. Which includes such topics as: How To Treat a Woman. Or How to Express Your Love. Or How to Love, In General.

I hope from his father he will learn that A Man Should be Madly in Love with His Chosen One. And that he should tell her often. And telling her often in no way diminishes His Manhood. It only makes him stronger. More of a man. I hope he learns never to be afraid to say how he feels. There's power and courage in that.

I hope he learns how to be Tender. Kind. Gentle. Strong. I hope he learns how to cuddle. How to hug. How to giggle. Play. Joke. Jest.

I hope he learns How To Be Open. Vulnerable. How to Let Go. How to, most importantly, Be Himself. So He Can Be Free.

I hope he learns that compromise is key. That listening is paramount. That wanting the other person to be happy is sometimes bigger than the self. And that is The Secret. That IS Love in Action.

I hope he also learns when to Speak Your Mind. Say Your Peace. To Not Be Afraid to do so. I hope he can do so with the Belief that he will Be Heard. And that belief will give him The Power to Be Calm.

For all these things, I am grateful that Dave is his father. Because that alone gives him a leg up on These Important Things.

As a woman I am grateful that I see these things in my husband. That I chose these things. That I respect them in him. And I pray that I can foster the same Values, Principles, Integrity in my son that I adore in my husband.

I hope my son becomes the kind of man that buys flowers for his wife....

Just Because.