Friday, January 14, 2011

On Being a Parent

Time Has Sped Up.

Time Is Slipping Away.

I want to run through the meadow of my memories and capture all the pictures...

those Flitting Fireflies of Thought and Color.

I want to bottle them up and put them on my counter so I can Look at Them.

I want to remember The Past, because He Is In It.

Every day he gets bigger and becomes Something Else Altogether,

and it Explodes My Heart.

Each day his laugh gets HEART-i-er.

Each day his eyes get CLEAR-er.

Each day his kicks get STRONG-er.

He's so young, but already I feel like his newness;

his itty-bittiness

are behind us.

I am going to be a Sad Mom.

because already,

I miss Every Dax That Ever Was.

I need videos and photos and letters so i can sit,

old and tired,

on the floor and Look At Him

againandagainandagainandagain.

I know you're right there, Right Now,

but STILL

(sit still please be still please always be still)

How am I going to do this?

How am I going to let go you go every day?

I look forward to all the Future Yous

but Dear God Please

Leave me my memories.

Let them lay vivid and perfect and

priceless in my mind.

It's going so fast. It goes SO Fast.

I want to

Hold On....

I love you i love you i love you i love you


9 comments:

Tiffany @ No Ordinary Homestead said...

Aww. What a wonderful message to your little one. You really can't capture enough of them. Videos, photos...they just grow up so fast. But every day is a new adventure and brings something amazing. We must cherish every moment :)

Mwa said...

Oh this is so true and so powerful.

I found myself saying something about Charlie the other day - I said "When he was a baby..." and he's five months old! You put it so well - the newness is gone. He's so not tiny any more.

Holli said...

What a great tribute to your child... this is sweet....

Amy Nielson said...

i love this. perfect ending :)

Caitlin @ Candyfloss & Persie said...

awww, such love!!! I bet time goes by far too fast, take pictures, keep journals, hold on to keepsakes- I think you'll always remember these amazing memories.

Meghan said...

This is so beautiful:) I hope you continue to cherish every moment with your sweet guy!

Anonymous said...

I love this. Time is fleeting. It is so hard being a parent.

Unknown said...

Your li'l guy has the best smile...makes me want to smile too~!!

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Bobi said...

ohh... my tears are streaming down my cheek, I had to read this to my husband. You are a beautiful person. you captured how I and I'm sure every mom out there feels about how quickly each one of our precious momments go and our babies grow and are no longer itty bitty.
thank you for this poem.

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